I'm so, so incredibly sorry to hear about that. I know he meant so much to you, and was really wonderful for you. I'm really sorry.

I'm also sorry we fell out of touch so much. You've been through so much... I think of you often and always hope you're well. Always hope you're happy. It probably sounds ridiculous since I took you off my flist first; I just... couldn't get all the Stargate references and eventually lost touch with feeling like we had anything in common. But it doesn't mean I stopped caring. I just am not all that enough to keep up properly. It sounds like things have been pretty terrible - I hope not, though.

You can email me at rabbys AT gmail if you want. It seems like so much has changed - boyfriend, apartment, etc... When last I knew you didn't want any new friends. I hope it's all positive for you. I really do. I'm sorry I haven't been a better person to you in the meantime, Ash.